Going crazy

I've reached the part of the waiting process, where I've started googling things. 

Things like:

    Cramping/pulling/pain 9/10/11 days post trigger shot.

    Post trigger shot symptoms

    Negative hpt 10 days post trigger shot

    Am I going insane trying to guess if I'm pregnant or not. 

(The answer to the last one is "yes" according to google.)

I am 11 days post trigger shot. Which means I'm 10 days post ovulation (hopefully. It's supposed to be 36 hours after the trigger shot.)

The trigger shot is HCG. It's what a pregnancy test tests for. It can stay in your system for around 10 days causing all sorts of pregnancy like symptoms. 

I think that's why I was fine the first week. Everything I felt I could attribute to the shot. I didn't have to wonder or stress about any of it. 

Now I just wonder if I'm imagining all the symptoms or if they're still hanging around because a) I want it so badly or b) there's still a little bit of HCG hanging around in my system. ( I feel like the they're all plausible options.) 

I broke down & peed on a stick this afternoon. It was negative, which means that the HCG is mostly out of my system (which means no false positives in my future.) It's really too early to tell for pregnancy though. 

I know that. 

I don't know the results of the progesterone test yet. (That's going to tell us if I ovulated.) I'm a little bit worried that since I took so long to respond to the stims from earlier in the cycle that I could need a higher dose of HCG. 

Now, I'm just worrying over things.  I'm nitpicking & micromanaging & going over things I cannot change. 

So, I'm just going to go enjoy this glass of wine. 

Oh! And from my eggs to yours, Happy Easter :)