Itty bitty follicles

So I had my follow up appt this morning. I'm fighting from feeling discouraged, bit at this point I'm a little but sad about it.

My little follicles were supposed to be at least a 12, and they only made it to 8's & 9's over the 4 day period w/ meds.

Mine did in 4 days w/ meds stimulating them, what normal ovaries do in 1 day. 

So we're changing meds. Which means We're spending more money, to buy more and different medicines. That I'll hopefully react to. And they're still shots. And the ARNP said "a lot more medicine." 

(Side note: I instavideoed my first 2 nights of injections. Can't figure out how to put it up here though.) 

It just makes it very clear that there was absolutely NO way I could get pregnant on my own. 

(I'm going to call the ARNP "G" here*) G told me that PCOS patients usually take longer to respond to the medicines & that they need normally need a lot more. I wish that had been mentioned in the beginning. 

(Of course I made the mistake of googling menopur/pcos/cycles last night & kind of figured that out myself, when I read from women who took injections for 16 days at 2x what I was.) So I wasn't shocked that it didn't work... Just sad.

And then G & the nurse were super reassuring about it- which makes me suspicious. Especially when the nurse said "you have a great attitude about it." 

That's usually a sign to me that I'm missing something. 

So...yeah. I guess we'll see. (I was going to say "fingers crossed!" But I took this while waiting this morning so...legs crossed!) 

       Yes, Those are my moose socks.

( I firmly believe in wearing socks to prevent stank feet while someone's head is between them. It just common courtesy people. )

*I don't normally do abbreviations but a) I signed what was basically a non disclosure form when I became their patient & b) everyone deserves their privacy. 

**I told Andrew about it this morning, and he said "You're body is just slow. Like a hobbit." And it made me love him a little bit more :)